What was that all about?
No we are both not dead yet..as all couples go, we have our ups and downs. We were letting you have a taste of our little squabbles. Unique eh? Both of us will forever be blaming ourselves for what we did wrong (or did not for that matter)...I bet it is tiring for Yang to keep up with me :P
Anyway, just to tell you..we are still alive!!!
i dont know what to do with my life............ i think i screwed up alot of times making hui ling sad, again. i wish i can turn back time and die earlier.
This blog aint dead! I still check it quite often ( u will be surprised how often..i guess as often as i check my mail )...well it seems yang has just typed another entry...that is surprising. Anyway it's nice to know that he feels he can write in here about his feelings that he hardly tells anyone else.
What i know now is that i am a useless girlfriend and will always be one... I can't convince myself otherwise... that's because i cant even convince my bestest friend that what seems true isn't so... I hate life....
i think this blog is way dead (duhh~~~) but i just blog for the fun of it. in case anyone read this witout noticing this blog is so dead 1000years ago, i'll tell u officially, it's dead. now RO rules our life and soon gunbound will take over considering the lag due to the ammount of ppl online. i play in iris server and my name is Julian there. sound strange for me huh? but i kinda like it. im leaving to aussie for holidays this 9th, wit hui ling for 2 weeks. i dont know what esle to say, but to wish for RO to stop lagging, cos i really like the game alot. i also wished that i can meet ppl i know in RO in real life, making new friends :D i always like to make new friends cos most of my old ones have new lifes. and making new friends makes me happy for stupid reasons.i feel that hui ling doesnt really like me talking to other girls, including those in RO. i dont know why i cant communicate to her well in RO, maybe because i think she's always beside me whenever playing RO, cos she really is!!!! when i pm ( private message) a girl i know since the beginning of the game, i can see her face somehow change. it's just me liking to talk to other ppl about stuffs, maybe it's because with new friends, old stories can be told. hui ling doesnt like when i tell her stuff 10000 times, but it's just me, i love telling carp 10000 times even though it may sound dull and stupid. sometimes i wish i can start all over again and make a better life out of my old ones, considering the fact i didnt dare to speak to girls, being so fatty and useless, being a pimple boy and coward when i was young. i wished i change earlier, but then again, i wouldnt be Yang, i would be Julian :P haih....i wish i can be more rajin nowdays, and wished my stpm results will enable me to go USM to study aviason, cos i love aeroplanes. they are one of the few reasons why im alive today, thinking i can run away with aeroplanes, to a world where i dont have to worry about family probs and have inner piece just within myself, just for once. this is also the reason why i like to sleep so much, considering i can be alive and uncousious in the same time, the feeling of peace. one day i would run away from everything, and when the day comes, please leave me alone for one day i will be back with more knowledge and crappy stuffs. i just want lonliness for once in my life, cos that feeling has never been in my life, just a feeling of emptiness i felt once in my life, but that has been filled with hui ling :P so, if anyone reads this, say hello to me at RO if u play :P bye kids~